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Sunday, September 25, 2005
some YAYs this month:
- no more crappy mcauley
- got accepted at st.marys
- that boy ehehe
- big fat YAY for holiday !
- new hair
- new shoes
- new clothes
- new bags
some BOOs this month:
- exam results
- school report
i read the card again, and it made me sook like a big fat baby. im going to miss all of you, but apart of me telling me that i will see everyone frequently. its so damn gloomy the stupid weather doesnt help one bit ! i placed the flowers in pretty vases, it brighten my room. thankyou everyone
Posted at 08:14 pm by s2you
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Thursday, September 15, 2005
whats a MO?!!?
preety boy kept calling me MO these days, and i demand for some definition !
Friday; going to wesley instute to watch some theatre for english. thought: we're gonna get lost!
random
michelle sex captain
jen ben slut captain
leslie vagina face or assistant head captain
shakun LOVE for banana's (big, long, hard banana's)
saheba most innocent virgin
becki consultation or in other words reminding you, YOU ARE A WANKER
shitty porn star captain
Grace sexual affliction caused mainly towards little boys
G-Race using accent against raging hormones
yerh yerh blah blah blah. exams are over and and mooving very soon.
ps: depress people are annoying and boring. go and sook over something new besides your 'life'. why sook over life when we all know its not even close to perfect? sif you just realised that. if you say 'i know' why are you still crying over it then?!!?
Posted at 08:00 am by s2you
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Sunday, August 28, 2005
i want to be the GUN of all GUNS
i have found it*
i know what i have to do =)
i know why i live like this
i found grace.
i am overwhelmed, beyond words can express.
happy and relieved that im not the only one
i know that there are people who are in the same boat as me
i dont feel alone anymore
i want to scream
i want to jump
i want to hug people
i want to SMILE all day looonnngg
i want to sing and say thankyous =]
i want to reach out, to those who are less unfortunate
oh, i want to do so many things... ive always wanted to make people happy but i never find ways to make myself content. now i have found it, i want to do something. something big, EXTRAORDINARY, do something out of my comfort zone.
i know im not perfect,
i know i live differently
i know ive been living double lives
i know im a softy
i know i have FLAWS and if i list them down it wouldnt help me cause 'you should never spend more time on a critic than you would give to a friend'.
but that doesnt matter anymore cause i want to be the GUN of all GUNS, there is no point being someone big without knowing your purpose. i rather being someone whos less noticeable and KNOWING what i have to do and leave a BIG, FAT mark in others lives.
so this is my plan:
- i'll smile and talk to more people. people who know me says i am approachable but they should talk to me FIRST for me to speak up. well im going to change that, i'll talk to people FIRST and smile more.
- always say thankyou and be happy with what I HAVE.
- help the people who lives in 3rd world countries. ie. the girls in Eutopia, africa, asia.
- catch up with old friends, who i havent spoken to in YEARS.
=] that is all for now. LOVE ya!
ps: the preaching today was lovely. God Bless him + his youth.
michelle <3
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Thursday, August 25, 2005
the most utterly boring day i have encoutered this week was RELIGION excursion. so they say my class and a few other classes going to a HOMESTEAD for our 'reflection' day, the first thing came to my mind was : im going to an elderly HOUSE ?!!!?
however i was half wrong; its actually called MAMRE HOUSE full of old ladies and grandpas and some other kids who are less fortunate ie. not skilled or drop-out kids. it is located in the middle of NO WHERE, saw horses and dead grass it was a long trip but was very fun as i ate, took luvo pictures <3 adore!, giggled and more nibbling =]
as the day drag very slowwwly, i figured out im actuallly classified as P E R F E C T I O N I S T, i thought i was girly but my attitude, thoughts etc are simmilar or very close to perfectionist. Here is what they said about moi:
Perfectionist
Perfectionist are realistic, conscientious and principled. They strive to live up to their hih ideals. They like other to take their share of resposibility, be fair and considerate and like to have their achievementes acknowledged. They can be hard on themselves and like to be reassured and have their advice valued. When others have been unthougthful, Perfectionist like them to apologise.
Perfectionist need gentle encouragement to lighten up and to laugh at themselves when they get uptight, but like their worries heard first. They are self-disciplined and able to accomplish a great deal. They work hard to make the world a better place, having high standards and ethics; not compromising themselves, being reasonable, responsible and dedicated in everything they do.
They are able to put facts together, coming to good understandings, and figuring out wise solutions, being the best they can be and bringing out the best in other people.
Fear/ Disappointment/ Difficulties:
- being disappointed with themselves or others when their expectation are not met
- feeling burdened by too much responsibility, thinking that what they do is never good enough
- not being appreciated for what they do for people
- being upset because others arent trying as hard as they are
- obessing about what they did or what they should do
- being tense, anxious and taking things too seriously.
Lengthy blog.
love michelle XoXo
Posted at 05:56 am by s2you
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Sunday, August 21, 2005
im scared im going to loose you. you are so special, you have no idea how special you are to me
i think you have the WHOLE packaged anyone would ask
i know that sounds crazy, but i really think you have the entire packaged
like my wog friend would say : OMG .. *fudging sexy bro!
its so crazy that i giggle whenever i remeninsced the convo we had
you make me laugh with your lame comebacks
you make stupid words, but i giggle over it
you make feel million times smarter =) even though i know you are much better than me xP
you make me feel so relax and i could tell you everything
everything about you just, so oh irressitable !
PS: hate mcauley with a passion, i love the girls BUT hate the school >.< cant wait untill i get out of mcauley =)) Keep prayin`
Pss: ive noticed whenever i wished for specific thing i get the opposite of what i want, example: boyfriend. if i say i want to go out with a guy whos tall, masculin + nice abbs, dark hair, half asian, nice personality etc who i end up going out with?? YUP.. a guy whos not so tall, no abbs + not masculin, FULL ASIAN -.-' ... i give up. im giving everything to God, he knows the best for moi =D plus i cant be bothered to choose or even LOOK for them; they can come to me.
miss you MUCH <3
michelle
Posted at 02:03 am by s2you
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Saturday, August 20, 2005
i deleted msn messenger *cries*
...
computer stuffed up badly, for unknown reason
most likely stupid virus.
now i cant talk to people*
anyways, this week has been super hectic and fun
*giggles*
for shakun and saheba: i checked out on friday noite *wink wink
ps: really miss you =)
michelle
xoxoxox
Posted at 05:24 am by s2you
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Monday, August 15, 2005
i i dont understand...?
the sudden rush of nervousness
took over me
i can only smile..
and walk away
later on i would blush
like an anime...?
i cant even talk properly
nor can i have a proper converstation
everything just has to rush
... i dont understand, whats this all about?
why am i like this?
Ps: according to stacy it is better to loose weight during exams than gaining weight, i thought this was cruel.
Pss: last time i lost 6kg in 2 WEEKS~!! no, im not a lindsey lohan fan you MO its caused by stress.
Posted at 02:40 am by s2you
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Saturday, August 13, 2005
my brother shouted me dinner
it was lovely.
no question asked, i ate like a pig.
or what so called vincent would like to call me
'giant' or 'tuby'
had a large bowl of chicken laksa and wedges with sweet n sour creme
and some of my brother's food a long with that.
snucked inside star city and watched
losers gamble their money away
one guy came with a bag filled with
stacks of green notes.
i have no clue what he was aiming for
possible attention?
decide to flash his richess to the world
as for me, a newbie in that building
witnessing such amount of money in tiny bag
was delirious. yes i did all the gapping mouth, jaw touched the ground a few times
managed to close them back though.
but i thought it was stupid; even I a newbie myself
would never do that. i would exchange the green paper with chips
anyways he lost half of it in ONE GAME... loser.
the night was wild, and i learnt a LOT !
funny how people would bash the daylight out of them
on a virtual roller game.
sad but true.
i walked with such excitment closely watched all the asian
betting thousands of dollars on some games that would win them nothing but a big lost.
whereas the non-asian seem to play the cheaper game such as poker machines, roller games betting on $1, $2, $5, $10.
i guess in term whos the smartest for being a tight-ass would be the non-asian, thus that prove that asian arent the biggest tight-ass the society thought and i guess some asian are blonder on the inside than others.
it was late, i had no clue what time it was
my brother insisted me to take see what
the rich and famous lifestyle look like
i must say its very fancy
went up to level 17
it was a nice, very modern bar
the waitress were dressed in a cute uniform walking around with high heals.
we went outside and OMIGOSH
the view was just, oh so sexy !
loved it. although it was a cold night,
it blew me away. so romantic, wished i had a bf
we ordered a few drink, mind you children
all the drinks there are for adults so
ordering a 'soft drink' was out of the norm
so i let my brother ordered the drink moi
they said its a big hit for girls like me
i had 'troblerone chocolate'
no it wasnt a milkshake, it was chocolate mix
with different type of alcohol
it was very think and super creamy
and very filling as well.
chatted away till who knows when
and little did i realised
some celebrity sat behind me
he wasnt the big HOLLYWOOD celebrity
but i guess he is the a celebrity in Australia
he is one of the actor from NEIGHBOUR
yes, i had my giggles sometimes that night
but all in the name of fun x fancy x (artificially) famous
i heart you. you know who you are =]
michelle xOxOx
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Thursday, August 11, 2005
GAHH. hmm.. as i can vividly promised 'i shall stay away from the net AND blog... exclude research time' riootee; whatever !!
so today is thursday, did nothing at school except we had to vote for our captain and vice captain etc. that was fabulas chose ANGELA McMAHN for school captain and ROSEMARY FARTULI for vice. i voted for them merely for their irritating and loud attitude and not to mention hillarious, so i assumed it would be an excellent idea to have these two wild young girls to represent our school in hope bringing more enjoyment memories towards year 12, 2006 =D
as i have mentioned in the previous blog i shall 'plan' and 'organise' my time wisely due to a boatload of assessments i have received these past weeks. so in terms of keeping that promise i shall go to the library AGAIN -_-"" and do some research and attend pre-uni in the afternoon.
L O v E. yes babe, love.
- love listening to old songs- mix 106.5
- shoes, so orgasmic - i am entitled to say that as I AM the S E X captain =P
- pink and lacey bra + panties- adore <3
- my hair - oh, so sexy =D its getting better, i can style it more
- neurofen -my new bestfriend, oh what would i do without you?
- HAPPY pills - its actually to gain more concentration etc. but it react differently with me *shrugs*
- ice chocolate and creme + chocolate sprinkles- 100% fat =]
- my smile- brace free, why not abuse it?
love you all night long
michelle XXX
Posted at 05:42 am by s2you
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005
right i told myself to plan
i also told myself to organise
i also told myself many many times to do things ASAP
and what have i done?
ENTIRELY inverse to what i had in mind. much sook and utilizing extensive vocab during this event.
comment to self: EXCELLENT work mich! keep up the procastinating and laid back attitude, no worries you'll get no sleep again next week.
on a lighter note...
cant hardly wait =]
PS: i have been elected as the 'sex' captain. didnt know these things existed o wellz... dont mind it =)
dont take it the wrong way or seriously children, its a friendship thing... if you know what i mean
love you long time
michelle xxx
Posted at 01:48 am by s2you
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